Chris Howorth’s Off The Record: End Of Tour Blues

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Chris Howorth's Off The Record

In This Moment guitarist Chris Howorth has returned with the third installment of his Gun Shy Assassin column Off The Record. This time around, he talks about the uncertainty of being in a band and that lingering depression that follows the end of every tour.

I am writing you from a Flying J truck stop somewhere in Oklahoma; we are on our way home from the Music As A Weapon Tour, having just completed three months on one of the biggest and most rewarding tours of my career.

I am feeling a strong rush of emotion that I have felt many times in the past — I casually call these feelings “The End of Tour Blues” but in reality, it goes a lot deeper than that. I have been dreaming of being in a rock band since I was 12-years-old and almost every waking moment from then until now has been spent trying to achieve that dream. I did it — I am in a successful band that has released three albums, played all over the world and shared the stage with some of the biggest bands in the world.

I am living my dream, but after a humongous tour like Music As A Weapon, the fear of “Will it ever happen again?” hits.

I know it sounds a bit depressing but in this business, you just never know. Things change, people change, and you can never predict what curveball life will throw at you next.

After all the years of struggling to get where we are now, I will never take for granted how lucky I am to have had the opportunities our band has had. Wes Geer, the touring guitarist for Korn, said something that really resonated with me. He said “Every show is a blessing and you never know after you finish a tour if that was the last time you will take the stage.”

I had these same feelings in 2007, at the end of our first touring cycle. We ended the cycle with Ozzy Osbourne and Rob Zombie in arenas and I was so nervous about the future: would we ever be able to get back here again? How can we top that?

Four years and two albums later, we just wrapped up our second arena tour. Our band is still going strong and still growing and you have to keep your head down and push through all the fear and doubts. In the end, I still have the “End of Tour Blues.”

  • Scott

    Sounds like that could be a song in itself “End of tour blues”

  • Becky Green

    I know this comment won’t cure your blues Chris, but maybe it will put a smile on your face…

    My friend and I first checked out your band when we saw that you were on the list for the Mayhem 2010 tour. I still remember the first time I listened to the Great Divide; I immediately loved it and had to listen to more of your band’s songs. In just a short time, my friend and I had bought all your albums and have gone to see you in concert 3 times in about 9 months.

    Needless to say, In This Moment is now my favorite band. I love your music, how real you all are (like being friends with your fans on fb), and your kick-ass performances. I share your music with everyone I know, and I intend on writing my local rock station to play ITM on their station.

    The point of all that was to give you hope that ITM is the next big thing. This is a personal belief of mine and I know you have many other fans that feel the same. So from our point of view, it better happen again! :o) But when you’re in doubt, remember all the fans ITM has standing behind them…a fucking Iron Army.